duty on or off

I couldn't count bloody loss
as a badge draped across my chest
Surrender not a option in my field
all that is mustered is my best

My will is strong while my heart is weak
who will remember me while the nameless mourn
And all who are guilty complain and shout
Those who mean well counted and reborn

Tell me where my fears do end
steel? and a bullet proof vest?
NO, I tell you only when you must die
and not knowing when you will bend

To the unforgiving world of distaste
And unforgiving deceit of sums
Mean well in all you do
No matter what protects and what may come